Mallory Pike Dec 28, 2013 14:48:26 GMT -5
Post by ashley868 on Dec 28, 2013 14:48:26 GMT -5
I hope you feel better about yourself now.
I was also bullied when I was younger about my looks, but then I grew into my looks, much like they say Mallory would. I have a strong nose and Mallory does too, and I think it looks odd when you're a gawky preteen/teenager. But now I'm fine with my looks and even my nose. I will contour it with makeup, but I feel fine without makeup too.
Not really, it's not as bad as it was when I was a teenager. I was extremely depressed as a teen... and I could really see Mallory being like that too. If she was down on her looks at eleven, and was still awkward into her High School years then she probably still had low self-esteem as a High schooler. High school kids can be brutal. Mine turned into social anxiety in my late teens and it's something I still fight with to this day. I have to remind myself constantly that I am a grown woman and people don't care about how I look, but the pep talk doesn't always work. High School did it's number on me. It was pretty bad in my early twenties as well. It wasn't until I moved from my old town to the current city that I live in now that I really broke out of my shell. My old town was where all the torment was, some people didn't grow up past High School and they still bothered me when I was 22 when I finally moved. I wear makeup and everything, but I have a hard time wearing dresses or skirts because people in my old town told me I was too ugly to wear nice clothes. I have to give myself a pep talk before I can dress up. But I have a hard time going out in public to even just grocery stores without getting anxiety and worrying that people think I am too ugly. So I can really understand Mallory, and I never liked the comments in the books with: Mallory had such a great personality that she became beautiful after a while.